Let the Journey Carry Me Forward: A Pagan Initiate to Palo Mayombe

Jason Pitzl-Waters —  December 31, 2012 — 13 Comments

In the past decade I’ve noticed a rapid increase in the number of modern Pagans who have taken initiations in African diasporic religions like Santeria, Vodou, and Palo Mayombe. Likewise, a growing number of elders and teachers in those traditions have started to attend Pagan events like PantheaCon in San Jose, California. I’ve long been interested in the shared struggles our faiths face, and find the increasing interactions a fascinating and under-studied phenomenon. What will this growing trend mean both for modern Pagan religions and for the African diasporic faiths?

To address some of these questions I’ve interviewed Stacey Lawless (Ngueyo Ndumba Kunayanda), who lives in the Southeastern United States where she is currently reinventing herself. A Pagan for most of her life, she is also an aborisha in Santería and an engueyo in Palo Mayombe. She writes, draws, paints, and has recently started a blog. Stacey is in the process of finishing a Master’s degree in American History and is considering a move to the West Coast. In addition, she wil be starting a monthly column here at The Wild Hunt about her journey into Palo Mayombe.

Palo Mayombe working altar photo by Osvaldo Sesti, 2010.

Palo Mayombe working altar photo by Osvaldo Sesti, 2010.

Let’s start with your religious background, how did you come to modern Paganism, and was there anything from that time that presaged your interest in Palo?

Oh hell. I kind of hate talking about my background in Paganism, because I essentially spent two decades trying to figure out what I was doing. I wish I’d been deeply rooted in something cool and become super-competent in life and magic, but nope. I came to it in high school through a love of nature, plus a love of folklore and the occult, but mostly I read a lot of books and made art on Pagan themes. I did dabble in a few traditions, especially Asatru, but nothing ever clicked for me. I was so hungry for something, but I couldn’t figure out what it was for way too many years.

Asatru did, in a way, foreshadow Palo for me. Something about the runes and the lesser spirits – the disir and huldre, especially – were close enough to whatever it was I was searching for that I kept trying to convince myself I was on the right track, even when I didn’t actually practice the religion any more. I probably drove all my Heathen friends nuts over the last few years as I just couldn’t quite let go . . .

Renee Stout - Eyes of Legba (monoprint) 2002

Renee Stout – Eyes of Legba (monoprint) 2002

What started you on your path to Palo? Was it a gradual process? Did it emerge from a dissatisfaction with what modern Pagan religions had to offer you?

Art started me on this path. I walked into an exhibition called “Dear Robert, I’ll See You at the Crossroads,” which was a series of works by Renee Stout about Robert Johnson and hoodoo, and it blew my mind. I’m still a huge fan of her art, and it’s had a lot of influence on mine. From there I got interested in African, African-American, and Caribbean arts, especially pieces made for religious use. I read about Haitian Vodou and Santería (or as many of us call it, Ocha), and for a while in the ‘90s I thought I wanted to go into Vodou. But I had no idea how to find a house (and was nervous about it anyway) so I let the idea go. (I confess I did try mixing it with Wicca, but that felt like an insipid way to approach the lwa, so I stopped.)

Mostly, though, I dug in my heels and went into heavy denial of the fact that there was a current of African-influenced something-or-other that tugged at me. I wanted to be Pagan, I wanted to learn the Old Ways of Europe, and I had no earthly idea how I might actually enter one of the Afro-Caribbean religions – not that I tried hard to find out. I just flirted with the idea and kept telling myself that it wasn’t really for me.

In the middle of my Heathen years, I met the man who became my partner, who at the time was a recently-made aborisha (someone with the lower-level Ocha initiations, but not a priest), and we started talking because I recognized the elekes he was wearing. (As a friend of mine put it, “Aw honey, now they’ve sent you a boy.”) We started dating, I joined his Ocha community and became an aborisha myself, and the Orishas began opening doors for me. A year ago, Eleggúa told me in divination that I needed Palo.

And I still dug in my heels and resisted. I did try to join a friend’s munanso (Palo community), but the plans we made for my initiation fell apart dramatically, and I seized the chance to proclaim that maybe it was all a mistake and I didn’t really need Palo. (I can’t recommend this approach to Orisha religion, by the way. They give you advice for a reason.) Luckily, I’d met my Tata-to-be online shortly after that mess, and luckily, he’s a fairly patient man. I finally got over myself and made rayamiento, Palo initiation, in November.

(And, of course, Palo turned out to be the thing I had been searching for all those years. I don’t think anyone who knows me was the slightest bit surprised.)

Stacey Lawless

Stacey Lawless

Is it easy for you to balance your now-dual religious identity? Do you feel like both a Pagan and a student/initiate of Palo? Does one identity dominate?

This is a tricky question to answer. I’ve felt like a Pagan for my entire adult life, despite never finding a home in any Pagan tradition. I thought that Palo would put an end to that, but quite the contrary. I’ve been gaining clarity on what Paganism might mean to me, and some doors have recently opened onto the community that I would never in a million years have expected. I don’t know what the future has in store, but it seems that I’m not done with Paganism yet.

My perspective on it has changed, though. I no longer see Paganism (or Palo or Ocha, for that matter) in terms of beliefs, cosmologies, or ritual forms. I see them in terms of serving gods and spirits in the ways in which they want to be served. So it’s really not a matter of balancing identities or religions; it’s more about maintaining relationships.

I do have a couple of spirit allies from my Pagan past, and the way my relationship with them has changed since the rayamiento is fascinating. I had such a heady, intellectual approach to them before, like I was always half-consciously doing comparative religion around their characteristics. Now they’re beings I know and spend time with.

There seems to be a growing interest in religions like Santeria, Vodou, and Palo among modern Pagans, having lived this process, what do you think drives it? Is there a yearning for authenticity there?

That’s a tough one. I know a number of people who came to Santería from Paganism; some shed their Paganism, others still practice a Pagan religion alongside Ocha, but all of them felt a spiritual calling to Ocha. On the other hand, from what I’ve seen online, there are clearly Pagans out there who are just cherry-picking what they like from the Afro-Caribbean religions and inserting it (sometimes with hilarious results) into their own practices. Neither approach seems to have a lot to do with a hunger for authenticity.

I don’t know. People have always been drawn to these religions for many reasons – the lure of power, a desire for healing, academic interest, involvement with the community, following a significant other or parent in, or even just love for the religions. Maybe some Pagans feel like they need something “realer” than what they’ve got, but I hope for Paganism’s sake that that’s not the only attraction.

What do you think your future with Palo will be like? What do you envision for yourself as you continue to assume the identity of a Palo initiate?

I hope I learn what I need to learn well, and hope I become a good healer. Almost everything in my life is undergoing change right now, so I’m just trying to navigate by what I hope for and let the journey carry me forward.

I think it was Anne Lamott who said, “If you want to give God a laugh, tell Her your plans.”

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  • http://twitter.com/YearInWhite Year In White

    I’m looking forward to reading the updates in the coming months. It’s nice seeing more people getting interested in ATRs.

  • http://egregores.blogspot.com Apuleius Platonicus

    Although we stumble over the right words, and fumble clumsily with ill-fitting conceptual categories, as we all move forward as Pagans we will more and more come to recognize the deep underlying commonalities that naturally connect us to other forms of religion/spirituality that are, like ours, natural and spontaneous manifestations of our humanity.

    Or, as the Emperor Julian once put it so nicely, “It is not by teaching but by nature
    that humanity possesses its knowledge of the Divine, as can be shown by the common yearning for the Divine that exists in everyone everywhere — individuals, communities, nations. Without having it taught us, all of us have come to believe in some sort of Divinity, even though it is difficult for all to know what Divinity truly is and far from easy for those who do know to explain it to the rest.”

    • Lēoht Sceadusawol

      That or we start to fully appreciate the differences that define each path.

      • http://egregores.blogspot.com Apuleius Platonicus

        As all devotees of Hermes understand, wherever there is a boundary there is also a gateway (that is why he is both the God of boundaries and the God of crossing boundaries).

        But more to the point, if one only sees the differences then one is worse than blind, because it is better to not see at all, and know that one doesn’t see anything, than to see a distorted, partial image, and think that is reality.

        • Lēoht Sceadusawol

          I didn’t say see only the differences. Every religion has something in common with another religion, but it is the differences that make everything special.

  • Deborah Bender

    Terrific interview. Thanks to both Jason and Stacey for publishing it.

    For some Wiccans, one attraction of the West African and Afro-Diasporic religions is that they have a strong focus on invocation and possession trance, and have well worked out techniques for doing those things safely and effectively.

    I imagine that hard polytheists would respect religions like Santeria which have detailed, named, specific pantheons and lore on what kinds of offerings that the various entities like. Reconstructionist European and Mediterranean religions have less information to work with in this area because of interruptions in transmission of the practices.

    One thing that could be seen as a positive feature, but I never see mentioned as such, is that most of the Afro-Diasporic traditions engage in animal sacrifice. Blood sacrifices are not universally a part of pagan religions in the broader sense of the word pagan. However, they were important to most of the pre-Christian religions of Europe and the Middle East, including Judaism, and also to the Mayan and Aztec religions.

    (There’s animal sacrifice, which used to be a fairly common religious practice, and then there’s human sacrifice, which thankfully was rarer. Down with the imperial Aztec religion; I’m glad the Spaniards got rid of it, and probably so were the neighboring peoples whom the Aztecs raided for sacrificial victims.) If one wishes to restore the religious practices of one’s ancestors, the purposes and techniques of animal sacrifice are something to consider.

  • Isabel

    Wonderful interview. I recognize quite a bit of it. I’ve been on an eclectic Pagan and Mediterranean path for the last few years, but lately I am called to Winti, also called Kromanti, the Surinamese African Diasporic tradition (the Indian path, to be exact). At first I resisted, having no connection with the African aspects of it. But my teachers are saying that I am in fact a bonu uma (a wise woman) and are now starting to ask me to assist (where at first they were resistant for a white person to learn these things at all). So I am very honoured, but also increasingly fascinated with this tradition. On the other hand I had a strong dream of Aradia last week, inviting me to seek her out. So I guess there is no simple, single path for me. But that is fine, and I feel blessed!

  • G

    Interesting interview, although I think it could benefit from a discussion of the practitioner’s race & how that influences her experience of Palo.

  • Omisakin Ifawole

    There is also a LARGE network of gay men who are both initiates in traditions of Paganism and Witchcraft and who are also initiates in African Diasporic paths varying in range from Haitian Vodoun, Lucumi,Ifa and Palo. Part of what I feel that African paths have given to modern paganism is a returned emphasis on ancestor reverence. African paths stress connection with the Ancestors everyday and not only at Samhain.

  • Around

    As nice as this looks on the surface, I would have liked to see a Pagan of Colour interviewed into something like Palo or any other African Diaspora religion. It is kind of disheartening to see the “face” of an African Diaspora religion a white woman.

    • http://www.wildhunt.org/blog/ Jason Pitzl-Waters

      I hear you, and for the record, I’m committed to bringing more Pagan POC voices on-board here at The Wild Hunt. Stay tuned!

  • http://www.facebook.com/eric.colon.756 Eric Colon

    Sala malongo I think what is more disheartening is the very first comment you see. What experience differs for people if you are white or black? I think people need to understand that palo mayombe was born from a mixture of bantu and native practices with whites also in the forefront of this practice as well. I think it would not make a difference if she was Chinese or Hawaiian. We need to stop that conceptual idea that color means authentic.

    • http://egregores.blogspot.com Apuleius Platonicus

      Africa is our Mother. This is true for all humans.